You need me less than I need you…

The post with this title was supposed to be about how my best friend broke my heart but it’s going to be about something else entirely.    This is my husband Andres. He is super cute and nice and charming and caring and the best guy around. Problem is… He isn’t around. He left to…

I’m not the one who’s so far away…

The more that I think about it the more I realize you can’t trust anyone in the world. All they do is hurt you in the end. So why trust anyone? Nobody is worthy of you being vulnerable and fragile. They just fuck you over and fuck you up emotionally and mentally. I thought people…

I’m losing my mind, losing my mind, losing control…

Well, the one thing that I was afraid of happened. He really doesn’t love me anymore. He doesn’t even want to be my friend. That’s the biggest punch in the gut…No, it’s the biggest stab to the heart I have had to endure in a long long time. But I took it very calmly. Thank…

Darling, you are Battle born…

It’s hard to think of myself as a fighter. I don’t think I really do much in my life. I sleep, eat, watch TV and occasionally go out (whether it’s with my parents or the few friends I have left). I never really saw myself as someone who’s endured things in life mainly because it…

Being blue is better than being over it…

   I sometimes question if being in love with him is a good idea. This is my best friend Christopher. We have known each other for quite some time now and he’s been the best friend anyone could ever ask for. He’s thoughtful and smart. He is caring and silly. He brings out both the…

December 2, 2015

I was going to write to you about the things that happened prior to today like my birthday and other events but I decided that I can make a post about all that stuff later. Tonight I want to focus on friends. I have been on tinder for the longest time. I’ve spoken to a…