With great power comes great responsibility…

We have all heard that saying…

“With great power comes great responsibility”

It’s what’s been told to every superhero or man with great political power or great

social standing.

But what does it actually mean?

Does it really mean that one with such great power can change the world?

Does it mean that anything is possible for him or her with this so called “great power”?

I believe that any one person has a chance to change not only their world but the world of those around them.

My older brother did this…

I have to be honest though… it sucks that I got to see my brothers legacy when he had passed on but nonetheless he left a legacy among all his friends…

Every person that came in contact with was touched one way or another by him…

That’s the kind of thing I want to do with my life…

I want to leave legacies…

Remnants…

I want to be able to see those people that I come in contact with on a regular basis touched because they knew me…

I want to be able to hear them say “Hey, my life was changed because I knew/know her”

My Pastor left footprints in the lives of everyone she came in contact with…

Trust me when I say that was a lot of people too…

She was a great woman of God, a great spiritual and physical mother, a great mentor and a great friend.

She knew just what to say and when to say it…

She knew when you needed a hug and when you needed the council of a mother…

What I remember of her the most is her smile…

That smile that told me that I was okay and that she was proud of me…

Everyone that spoke at both my brother and my Pastors funeral had nothing but great things to say and great memories to share…

I want to be able to show others Gods love through my life…

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

I have always told myself that I was destined for more…

I can feel it…

I know better things are ahead in both my physical and spiritual life…

 

 

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Dearly beloved,

From the first day I laid my eyes on you I thought you were something different

Not like everyone else

I literally thought you were the answer to my prayers

My knight in shinning armor

The one person the Lord sent my way to complete me

To make me happy

You were everything to me

And for the longest time I believed that

I fooled myself into believing that the tears, the lonely nights, the anger, the hopelessness

was all because I deserved it.

I fooled myself into believing that everything was my fault.

Your anger

Being ignored

Feeling like I’m not good enough

The paranoia

The loneliness

The hurt

The tears

Everything

I fooled myself into thinking this is what love is and that I deserve the blame.

I thought if I just took it all upon myself maybe then I can make you happy…

Your feelings took precedence before mine, even though at the end of the night i ended up with tears in my eyes while you looked like you could care less.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

These zombies in the park, they’re looking for my heart…

I feel it…

It’s actually happening again…

It always happens…

Maybe I really am to blame…

Maybe I am a monster…

I wish someone could explain to me why this always happens to me…

Maybe in a past life I did something wrong and now I have to pay the consequences for my actions…

I really am starting to get tired of losing pieces of myself…

I feel like at one point I’m gonna lose myself completely…

There won’t be anything left of Michelle…

She’s just going to be a distant memory…

I have to be honest though, I don’t want to be bitter and angry and resentful.

That doesn’t help with my current condition.

I want to keep believing that people are good…

It’s just that the more I have that mentality, the more people disappoint me.

It makes me sad that even though I want them to be good they aren’t nor will ever be good people.

I’m slowly starting to feel like everyone is just horrible and mean.

No one will ever really understand me at all…

I guess it’s just a fact I’m going to have to deal with.

That just sucks so much.

I want someone to relate to me and what goes on in my head for once instead of making me feel horrible about it.