Make sure you two survive…

At the end of the day, you realize you don’t really know people the way you think you do. They always end up surprising you… Whether it be for good or bad… They always end up surprising you… Tonight I had the magnificent moment of clarity with someone who I thought would never hurt me…….

You’re a Rainbow in the Dark

It’s funny how the one person who I’m supposed to be open with on a regular and about everything isn’t the person that I’m open with… I mean I love him so much and I want to be open with him but how can I be open with him if I myself don’t know half…

Why?

  Losing no someone is never easy. It really isn’t. No matter how many times you go through it, it never gets easy. I’ve lost people in my life. My brother Joseph, my friend Michael, and now my spiritual mom… It’s been a tough couple of days for me. Since getting the news Monday morning it’s…

It’s better off this way….

Bloody knife in my hand Cuts on my wrist Why oh why did it come to this? All alone  In my mind  No one to help me  No one so kind  I’m one cut away from ending it all Why am I the one who has fallen so hard?  No one save me  I don’t want…

This was no accident, it was a therapeutic chain of events…

Hello world Sorry for being absent from here. Just had a lot to deal with a lot of things in my personal life but I’m back and raring to go. Life has been pretty good to me what with my mental illnesses being in check and finding Freddy and leaving the past behind me. I’ve…

You need me less than I need you…

The post with this title was supposed to be about how my best friend broke my heart but it’s going to be about something else entirely.    This is my husband Andres. He is super cute and nice and charming and caring and the best guy around. Problem is… He isn’t around. He left to…

I’m not the one who’s so far away…

The more that I think about it the more I realize you can’t trust anyone in the world. All they do is hurt you in the end. So why trust anyone? Nobody is worthy of you being vulnerable and fragile. They just fuck you over and fuck you up emotionally and mentally. I thought people…

I’m losing my mind, losing my mind, losing control…

Well, the one thing that I was afraid of happened. He really doesn’t love me anymore. He doesn’t even want to be my friend. That’s the biggest punch in the gut…No, it’s the biggest stab to the heart I have had to endure in a long long time. But I took it very calmly. Thank…

Darling, you are Battle born…

It’s hard to think of myself as a fighter. I don’t think I really do much in my life. I sleep, eat, watch TV and occasionally go out (whether it’s with my parents or the few friends I have left). I never really saw myself as someone who’s endured things in life mainly because it…