These zombies in the park, they’re looking for my heart…

I feel it…

It’s actually happening again…

It always happens…

Maybe I really am to blame…

Maybe I am a monster…

I wish someone could explain to me why this always happens to me…

Maybe in a past life I did something wrong and now I have to pay the consequences for my actions…

I really am starting to get tired of losing pieces of myself…

I feel like at one point I’m gonna lose myself completely…

There won’t be anything left of Michelle…

She’s just going to be a distant memory…

I have to be honest though, I don’t want to be bitter and angry and resentful.

That doesn’t help with my current condition.

I want to keep believing that people are good…

It’s just that the more I have that mentality, the more people disappoint me.

It makes me sad that even though I want them to be good they aren’t nor will ever be good people.

I’m slowly starting to feel like everyone is just horrible and mean.

No one will ever really understand me at all…

I guess it’s just a fact I’m going to have to deal with.

That just sucks so much.

I want someone to relate to me and what goes on in my head for once instead of making me feel horrible about it.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

I’m not the one who’s so far away…

The more that I think about it the more I realize you can’t trust anyone in the world.

All they do is hurt you in the end.

So why trust anyone?

Nobody is worthy of you being vulnerable and fragile. They just fuck you over and fuck you up emotionally and mentally.

I thought people were good.

But I see that no one is good.

Everyone is messed up and selfish and cruel

The world is cruel

Maybe it’s time to harden my heart…